if i want

the ovens on toasting my last bagel.
imagine this really was my last bagel.
I want to run and hug you even though you’re in
the desert right now.
and we broke up
is it easier to love someone you lost
or just continue loving them when you lose your perception
of who they should be for you?
u failed at something, I guess
is that why I was mad?
and now you don’t need to do it, you didn’t and I still
survived so i guess I didn’t need you to do it
for me to live on.
I get it now
i'm getting it now
what are you here for then in my life?
to show me I don’t need you
yet I can want you if I want?